You know, because I am a little crazy, I sometimes have this fear that our donor Serena is not doing what she is supposed to be doing, such as forgetting her injections, administering the wrong dose, etc.
But fortunately, that fear only creeps in my head once in a while. The rest of the time I am quite confident that she diligently does her part correctly.
Today is her first follicle check after four days of stimulation. Quite amusingly, a few of my friends messaged me this morning asking if today was our donor’s monitoring appointment.
It takes an IVF veteran to know which day the follicle check should fall on.
This morning, I had all sorts of thoughts in my head. I am not going to list them here, but they were all sorts of things that could go wrong with our donor. I know, crazy, right?
I guess with this being our last shot, and with our history of getting bad news, I just can’t help it but anticipate the other shoe to drop. But at the same time, I am quite confident that this will turn out fine.
Can you understand that dichotomy?
I pray for her safety during her drive to Dr. E’s. I pray for her health and for her eggs to grow well and evenly.
Emotionally I have been doing quite well. Not too anxious.
This afternoon, Dr. E’s update came with a smiley face in the subject of the email. It’s always a good thing when your RE writes you with a smiley face.
This is what she reported:
“She looks great.
Estradiol just under 500.
Looks like Serena is doing great. The follicles seem to be growing steadily and evenly.
But me being me, even though Dr. E said that she looked great, I still had to email her and ask if our donor is looking good.
Dr. E’s response? “I’d say great :)” Another smiley face.
Well, I will take her word for it!
For this particular cycle, I almost didn’t want to know the details of the stimulation. But Dr. E included all of that. I don’t know if it is or is not a good thing to have that knowledge. I almost just want to hide myself under the blanket until day five or day six of fertilization.
But all in all, it is great news. So now I can breathe and enjoy my weekend.