I went on an emotional roller coaster ride this whole morning.
Annie went in for an ultrasound today. My RE Dr. E also ordered a cervical length check just to be sure. Since I didn’t fly in, we had to rely on Fac.ebook video conferencing for me to be present at the ultrasound. Right at 10am, Annie called me and I could immediately see one of the babies on an abdominal ultrasound. He/She looked so much bigger than the last time I saw him/her. However, the video was cutting in and out because of the poor reception at the office. Later I found out that the heart rates are both at 176. The vaginal ultrasound showed that Baby A was measuring at 8 weeks 4 days and Baby B was at 8 weeks 5 days. I was overjoyed to see them on the screen and to learn about their measurement being on time. Annie asked about the cervical length, which was measuring at 3.4cm. That wasn’t the kind of number that I expected since I knew that anything over 4cm is good. That threw me into panic mode as I couldn’t get an answer from a professional right away.
Annie had to wait for her OB to return from a delivery before she could see him. In the mean time, I wrote Dr. E about the cervical length and asked if it would be a cause for concern. She said that she would do a repeat cervical check as she wasn’t sure why her cervix would be 3.4 cm. She asked to have Annie return in a week and it could just be the person measuring. This comment made me so nervous so I asked if this would be a concern and it’s usually the same technician that measures these things. Dr. E responded saying that she wasn’t concerned but if the technician is going to be same, have Annie go see a high-risk OB for the measurement and consider a cerclage if it is still the same.
Can you imagine my mind? I couldn’t enjoy the good news of the babies anymore because all my mind was thinking about was short cervix and preterm labor and danger to our babies. It was a very difficult for me to focus on the good news.
Luckily I got to talk to the OB. First of all, he was very respectful and patient with my questions. He said that the babies are measuring well with great heartbeats, so that’s great news. In terms of cervical length, he said that 3.4 is really not a concern. Plus it is so early in the pregnancy that it is sometimes hard to see where the uterus ends and where the cervix begins. They usually don’t measure the cervix until much later, and if there is a concern, they don’t do cerclage until 14 weeks. So he doesn’t think that a scan in a week is necessary since it’s so early on. We can remeasure the length in two weeks at our next scan and see what happens. He said that Annie has had three full-term births without any problems. He is not concerned about it. In terms of other things, he said that they won’t push a twin pregnancy beyond 38 weeks. So Annie will get close monitoring once she hits 32 weeks. As of right now, everything is measuring well and I should not be worried.
I wrote Dr. E back about Dr. OB’s opinion. She agrees with him about checking in two weeks. I am happy that she agrees with him. And she thinks that it’s actually not hard to measure the cervical length at all but she really thinks that the ultrasound technician might have under-measured it. The thing is, these technicians at an OB office usually don’t measure cervical length at such an early stage. She might not have known how to properly measure it.
My trusted OB practice professional Jane told me that she wouldn’t worry about it because it is a hard skill in general and the check is not usually done until later. She said that she wouldn’t even bat an eye if she saw the measurement of 3.4 in a report.
When I was waiting to talk with the OB and for Dr. E’s emails, I put my head down and prayed. I prayed for my trust in the Lord since there is really nothing I can do but to trust. I have to trust that if this is God’s will, then I’ll see these babies healthy and alive. But it just shows you how weak our mind is. Even one thing that could be wrong could throw the whole joy out of the window. I need to focus on the great news of the babies. And it also shows that knowing too much and too early may not be a good thing. So I hope that I could keep my peace and calm for the next two weeks. Getting pregnant is so hard, and waiting for the birth is also very hard. There is always something to worry about. But today we celebrate these two lives that are growing well inside of Annie.