My OB wrote me and told me the news that beta came back at 10. I think it’s a chemical. My OB still thinks that I should repeat beta on Wednesday. I wrote my nurse at U.CSF and am waiting for her to write me back.
I am doing okay. Probably just numb. I am sure I am going to cry some time tonight.
Although I sort of expected it not to work, it’s still heartbreaking that this is not our time.
My mind has already moved onto the next transfer.
I don’t know what else to say now. Thanks for all the love.
I am so sorry. Hugs and love.
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Screaming so many bad words in my head that I won’t type here. I’m so sorry. This isn’t fair. Hugs.
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Leave the cursing to me. I’m really, really good at it and I’m doing tons here on your behalf, Isabelle. This is NOT fair at all. I wish there were words that were adequate.
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I’m so sorry Isabelle!! Sending you lots of hugs!!! xo
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I’m so sorry.. Still praying for you and sending hugs your way.
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No words…my heart hurts for you…lots of love sent your way Isabelle…xoxo
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I’m so so sorry, this is truly unfair. Sending lots of love your way, I’m so sorry again xxx
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I’m really sorry this was not it. Thinking of you and your husband
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So, so sorry ❤
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So very sorry!! Sending hugs.
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I am so sorry.. Sending lots of love and hugs your way! I was so hopeful this was it for you and Bob.
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Oh sweetie, I’m so sorry. There’s absolutely NOTHING worse than limbo- a beta that isn’t quite what it should be, but isn’t definitively negative either. I know that feeling so well. Thinking of you.
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I hate this. I am so sorry, this is just so unfair. My thoughts are with you.
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I hate this too. I’m so sorry. This is all ridiculously unfair and you always handle everything with such grace. Lots of love xxx
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Ditto what BB says ❤ XOXO
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Shoot, I am so so sorry. This sucks. I know it must be hard to hang in there, but what matters is that they double from here on out, right?
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Oh no I’m so sorry. Dammit. Thinking of you and your husband.
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I’m so sorry to hear this. It’s so unfair. I don’t know what else to say but I’m thinking of you. Hugs
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My goodness this pain hurts so badly. I am so sorry. For what it is worth, my RE told me that getting any positive number on a beta (greater than 5) makes him optimistic it will work in the future and tells him we should keep going with what we are doing because it is just a matter of time until it works. Hugs to you.
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Sending all my love ❤️💔
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I am so incredibly sorry. Sending you love and light.
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I am so sorry about this. I hope you find some peace. Sending lots of love.
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I’m so sorry.
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You are graceful and amazing and I hate what you are going through. Gutted for you. Keep on keeping on like you do, your time awaits.
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THIS IS TOTAL BULLSHIT
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Oh no I’m so terribly sorry Isabelle. It breaks my heart that you are going through another setback. Hugs.
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I’m so sorry. My first DE negative was soul-crushing. I hope it’s a really late starter or at least resolved quickly for you. It’s not fair.
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Sending you love, I’m so sorry.
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Oh I am so sorry and sad to see this. I don’t understand. I hate this! Sending you a big huge hug! I’m so sorry. Thinking of you.
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I’m really sorry Isabelle.
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Oh no. I’m so sorry. Sending much love.
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So very sorry, why can’t things just go easy for you for a change?!
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Very sorry to hear this
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I am so so sorry! I read the first line of your Micromonday blog this morning, saw you’d had a blood draw and skipped right to this post to find out. It hurts but you are obviously very loved here, and by God always.
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I’m so sorry about the low beta 😦
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Oh man I am so sorry. That just sucks.
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Friend, that means you CAN get pregnant. An embryo can attach to your womb and grow. This embryo just wasn’t the one to do it. Your doctor will evaluate this and take further steps with next transfer. It will be okay, I know your heartbreak and I know it doesn’t feel like it will be okay. Be it will. Your body can become pregnant. That’s a huge deal!
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Hope is really heavy, so let us hold it for you so you can feel what you need to feel. Sending a lot of good thoughts for the repeat beta tomorrow.
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I am so very sorry. Hugs hon.
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Not fair. I’m so sorry 😔
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