Remembering Our Due Date

I never intended to look up my potential due date for our one and only pregnancy.  However, my friend did for us.  I forgot when exactly, but knew that it’d be in October some time.  Isn’t it October now?  The other day, Bob asked, “Wouldn’t our baby be due soon if the pregnancy had progressed?”  As I stared at the TV screen, my eyes felt a little warm and tears were brewing.  They didn’t come down though.  I can’t believe it’s time for our due date already.  Has it been so many months already?  I went back to the online chat conversation I had with my friend and found out the exact date.  The due date would have been October 29th.  Although it’s a little sad and my heart hurts a little, it’s also strangely comforting to know exactly what the due date would have been.  Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.  It’s so fitting to honor this brief yet important pregnancy today.

Another dear friend of mine sent me a picture that says:

I remember the day, 

I remember your loss,

I remember your sadness,

I remember your baby.

Thinking of you.

I thanked her and mentioned that my due date would have been October 29th.

She wrote: “I know.  It’s in my calendar.”

I am so grateful for a friend who cares so much that she wrote it down and remembered.  It’s important to me that this pregnancy is not forgotten.

I will not forget.