My therapist told me that everybody has an inner critic. This inner critic tells us things that we may not want to hear, like “You are an inadequate mother” or “You should have done better”. You may want your inner critic to be gone but he/she is here to stay. My therapist asked me to create an image for this inner critic, give her a name, and even think about what she may look like. She wants me to befriend my inner critic because that will help with working on my anxiety. She also asked me to thank my inner critic in my gratitude meditation exercises so that I can move towards living peacefully with her. I have named my inner critic “Ursula”. A long time ago when I was still trying to make some embryos to transfer into myself, I had recurring ovarian cysts. My dear friend Jane Allen named one of my cysts “Ursula”. When my therapist asked for a name, the name “Ursula” immediately popped in my head. Her assignment for me this week was to create an image for Ursula. Since I like drawing (but haven’t even done any since the babies were born), I decided to draw her. This is the final product:
Doesn’t she look like a mean school teacher?
It was fun for me to draw her. Now I have an image to look at, I wonder how that is going to help me on my journey to live with inner peace and harmony.