MicroblogMondays: Life is Different – Another Graduation

This past weekend I attended my nephew’s high school graduation.  Coincidentally, the day before the graduation, I was re-reading my old blog posts and came across the one that I wrote about his 8th grade graduation in June 2015.  I was going through a very difficult period of time with having to have a surgery inside my uterine cavity and having to find a donor in addition to some family drama.  Watching the mother of a graduate reading a card from her son and tearing up from his words was such a trigger for me.  I was tearing up a bit wondering about my future: if I would ever get to attend my kid’s graduation.  This past Saturday, sitting in the theater witnessing another milestone of my nephew’s life, life surely felt very different from four years ago at his previous graduation.  I no longer have to wonder if I’d ever have a chance to attend my kids’ graduation.  I mean, we don’t know about the future, but since my children are here on this earth, the chances of me being able to be at their graduation are exponentially higher than when I was still hoping to make a baby.  Instead of a sense of loss, unfairness, envy, jealousy, fear that I experienced four years ago, I was a happy mother checking on my phone’s baby monitor app periodically to see if my daughter was still napping in her crib and messaging my husband to see if our boy was still sleeping in his pack n play.  I am forever grateful that at this graduation my pursuit of a child was no longer an uncertainty.  Being able to celebrate my kids at their middle school, high school, and even college graduation is not a far-fetched dream anymore.

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4 thoughts on “MicroblogMondays: Life is Different – Another Graduation

  1. Ah, this is beautiful! It’s so lovely to have that retrospective and see the different place you’re in now. Being resolved is such a gift that way. Although my journey ended differently, I feel the same — such gratitude that I can attend events that may have been more bitter than sweet because I am not in that uncertainty place any more. This post really warmed my heart!

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