Back in October before our first donor egg transfer, I was looking for a piece of maternity clothing items to put in my closet as a token of my belief that I’d pregnant one day. I couldn’t find anything that I liked at a brick and mortar store. It was suggested to me that I could try this particular store online. Things are pricier but look great.
I subscribed to the mailing list and get an email occasionally for deals. It is a little silly to be getting emails for a maternity clothing store when I am not anywhere near pregnant. But as long as I can stand seeing pregnant women on an email, I figure I can keep on getting these updates.
Two days prior to my meeting with my former RE Dr. E who revealed to me that I might need a surrogate, I ordered this maternity dress not knowing that I might never wear it during a pregnancy. It was on sale and I used a $15 off coupon.
I had mixed emotions when I received the dress a few days later. It was meant to be a motivation for me to keep my faith that one day I would be pregnant. With this new development, I didn’t know if I would ever make use of the dress.
I tried it on and it fit me perfectly, even though I don’t have a pregnancy bump. After a lot of consideration, I decided to keep the dress.
I hope it serves as a reminder that, although I sometimes have little faith, God is bigger than any of my doubts and fears. His plans for us are unfathomable. Despite our current roadblocks, we don’t know what the future holds. One day I may put this dress into good use.