So, I had this afternoon off.
It wasn’t intended to be an afternoon off. You see, I had originally taken Tuesday and Thursday afternoons off for the Endometrial Receptivity Array biopsies. They got canceled because of the possible fibroid surgery. Since I already canceled all my clients for those two afternoons, I scheduled an MRI scan of my uterus in preparation for the surgical consultation on April 20. Bob and I talked about getting a second opinion with Dr. E. I emailed her. She said that I could schedule an ultrasound and consultation with her any time as long as I am not bleeding. I called her office yesterday and found out that I could schedule both with her Tuesday afternoon. I then rescheduled the MRI for another day in order to go see Dr. E today. Well guess what? I started spotting yesterday. I am not supposed to be bleeding at this point. This is the middle of my cycle. I was on Lup.ron and estrogen patches for a few weeks. I guess stopping both last Thursday without any progesterone support makes the hormonal levels of my body fluctuate. My body reacts by giving me breakthrough bleeding. The spotting yesterday turned into full flow this morning at 10:30am. I called Dr. E’s clinic to ask if I should come to the appointment at 1:30pm. The nurse sent Dr. E a message and promised to get back to me. By noon time, I hadn’t heard from anyone from the clinic so I called. The answering service transferred me to the clinic. The same nurse finally got on the phone and told me that she just connected with Dr. E who advised against me going in because of my full flow. We had to reschedule it for another day.
I was not bummed per se. I just find it interesting that when you don’t want your period to come, it comes. It just can’t hold off for another day. These are just tiny things. I have decided not to be bugged by these inconveniences. The only reason I wanted it to be done today was because I had already canceled my clients. To see Dr. E on another day means I would have to move or cancel another client. But this is life. Life is full of inconveniences.
Instead of staying at work for the rest of the afternoon, the first thing that came to my mind was to have some mother-daughter bonding time. I immediately called my mom who gladly said yes to my lunch invitation. I didn’t have a particular place in mind but I often opt for trying out new restaurants or having cuisines that Bob doesn’t care for when I am not eating with him. My mom is totally adventurous and loved the idea. I looked up a filipino restaurant. There are plenty of them around where we live. I found the one that looks the most interesting and had the highest rating. Off we went. Ten minutes later, we sat at this restaurant and studied the menu. Not knowing what to expect, we both ordered dishes that we loved:
In the afternoon, a nurse at my current clinic called me with this frantic tone of voice wondering where I was. I am usually on time and it was really unlike me to be 30 minutes late and had still not shown. They basically didn’t know that the appointments were already canceled. The nurse practitioner who did my lining check wrote the notes but did not cancel the appointments for me. And her notes didn’t get signed off somehow and they didn’t show up on the system that the nurses had access to. I am surprised but not surprised that the clinic is too big, there are too many people working there, and they are not always as organized as the customers would like them to be.
I pondered what I should do for the rest of the afternoon. I could have done many things but I decided to take a nap. It was such a rare treat for a Tuesday afternoon that was supposed to be a work day.
I’m also glad to report that I am feeling much better. My dear friend Maddie gave me a pep talk yesterday that alleviated many of my worries and fears. And God did answer my prayers. I woke up this morning feeling calm and at peace for the first time in four days. I honestly don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have supportive friends on this very difficult journey.
I thoroughly enjoyed my bonus afternoon and loved every single minute of hanging out with my mom, even eating food that I don’t normally eat. Although today didn’t turn out to be what I thought it would be, sometimes you just have to go with the flow.