Girl Cousin who lives on the east coast is in town for a wedding. She sent out a last minute email to all the cousins to see if anyone can join her for dinner this Sunday.
My first reaction: I wanted to hide.
Not that I don’t want to see my Girl Cousin. If we were to get together, I am sure we’d have a lot to talk about. She’s an acupuncturist and has some friends who also have fertility issues. The last time I saw her was at my Boy Cousin’s wedding last October.
Well… Boy Cousin is the problem. It has not been a year since his wedding and his son was already born. Eleven months after he and his wife got married.
I don’t know if I am ready to see him, her, or the newborn.
I sometimes feel bitter when I think about them. And I don’t want to force a smile or force my interest on the baby.
My brother already responded and said he and his family can’t make it.
Bob would rather watch football on Sunday.
I was thinking, maybe Boy Cousin wouldn’t come because the baby is barely a month old.
He just wrote me a FB message asking if I could make it. I closed FB once I saw the message.
I know this is totally a first world problem. I still haven’t decided but I am leaning towards not going.
Sorry Girl Cousin…. I would love to see you. But a baby is in the way.
Would you go?