First thing first, Ursula has been killed! I’m very relieved to be able to start Cl.omid tonight.
UCSF’s instructions is to call on the first day of full flow before 4pm so that the baseline appointment can be scheduled the next day. I was so hoping to be able to go in on Labor Day so I don’t have to interrupt my work schedule on Tuesday. I have a new desk that is being delivered and it is very important for me to be able to be at work for that. My work has agreed to pay for a sit-to-stand desk to help alleviate my wrist and shoulder pain caused by repetitive stress from typing. I have been anticipating the desk’s arrival for a few weeks now. The delivery guy is apparently only going to move the packages from the truck to the ground. I’m responsible for making sure that the boxes are all intact without damage and that they get moved into the building safely. I really don’t want to leave it to my coworkers to assume responsibility for me.
When my temperature dropped below coverline yesterday, I knew that AF would show some time. But I wasn’t sure if she would come before or after 4pm. We met up with some friends in Napa yesterday and my phone reception was spotty. I was spotting at around 1:30pm but full flow had not come. The more I thought about having to go in for an appointment on Tuesday, the more stressed out I became. But I felt very uncomfortable lying about having a full flow if it indeed was only spotting. Bob saw me struggle so much and said, Just call! At about 2:45pm, I gave in and left a message with the answering service. Luckily, it had become more than spotting when the nurse called me back. I didn’t feel like I was lying as much. And more luckily, the phone actually had reception when the nurse called. I dared not move from my location being afraid that I would lose her.
I woke up this morning from a very good night sleep. I kept my eyes closed in a very comfortable position and started praying. Praying that the cyst would have disappeared already. Praying that I would be calm and at peace with the process. Praying for total surrender of my control. Praying that the schedule would not disrupt life too much. God is good and He answers prayers.
The clinic did not look like it was Labor Day. There were still quite a few people sitting around waiting to be seen. I am grateful that Bob could go with me again because it’s a holiday. I must have been quite nervous. My blood pressure showed. My usually normal 110/70 blood pressure shot up to 136/87. I wasn’t happy about my weight either. Ever since IVF started 14 months ago, my weight has been creeping up steadily despite breaks in between cycles. It may also have to do with the way I have been eating since our international trip. I cringed when I saw the number. I really need to get it under control. First thing first, putting a limit on the sweet things that I put in my mouth.
I was pleasantly surprised that Dr. No Nonsense’s colleague Dr. Swift was the one who saw me. With this clinic, you just never know if you’ll see a real RE/professor or just a doctor working for the RE, like what happened to me last time. It was nice to see a real RE. She got the nickname Dr. Swift because she was doing everything very fast. She was pleasant. I learned in this process that you have to ask the necessary questions and advocate for yourself if you want the full picture. I asked a bunch of questions. So yes if I don’t use anesthesia, I can go back to work on the day of the retrieval. No, they don’t do blood draw to check any of the hormones for this protocol (I guess because you are only aiming at one to two eggs?). She asked if my right tube was dilated. Not that I knew of… She just left it at that. When she said that the cyst was gone and I could start the Cl.omid tonight, I asked for the number of follicles. We have four follicles! That’s pretty good in my books. I had to ask if I should make an appointment at the front desk for cycle day 8, because in a big clinic, you just have to be on top of things. I doubt that Dr. Swift would have told me that without me asking. It’s nice to be able to come to the next monitoring appointment on a Sunday again so we don’t have to disrupt my work schedule.
I am excited to be able to move on. I am really just hoping for one embryo that we can freeze. It’s not too much to ask for, is it? Please pray and think very good thoughts for my ovaries and my follicles. And pray that Cl.omid does not make me too crazy.
IVF #5. Here we go, again.